This is life?!

It had been a long long time I had never been writing...

It was four weeks after my school re-opened...

Dull live is still going on, with hustling and bustling tone..

Is this the way I want to be??

asking myself frequently..

30 credits for 30 times of sacrifice??

am I suit for this way??

I started to doubt with myself..

depression down in my heart..

where is my passion??

where is my motivation??

where have my spirit been gone??

I am here, but my soul is over the ocean..

The brutal fact I shall facing,

is driving me insane, upset

and losing my passion in it..

am I losing anything I owned before??

yes, it does.. but what is it?? I answered myself:"I don't know.."

unsustainable burdens for an ordinary man,

can miracles be happened?? or pushing me toward extremity and so dead??

God, I wish wish a hand from you and standby my side..

my heart is crying, no an echo can I listened..

Angel of sound, guide and guardian, am I qualified to grant in your glory??

I was lost, are you willing to save a wretch like me??

Life but a walking shadow, signifying nothing!!

I am agreed with this........

this is life, not a beautiful way, as perfect as we imagined,

but brutality and cruelty driving me along with this..

till the end, I got totally tortured and insane..

Ave Maria.. Jesus christ..

bless me for a light of beacon..

can you hear my soul appealing??????